I am fascinated by the countless ways God speaks to me throughout each day. It's like a thought or feeling crosses through me, I don't give it much thought until later suddenly something that is completely relevant to the previous thought or feeling has a purpose.
Lately, I am not sure why, I have been feeling sort of down on myself for how I feel I am measuring up as "mom". It's disheartening because I've always wanted to be a mom, I was born to be a mom, but sometimes I just feel sort of like a "lazy" mom. I spend more time on the computer than I probably should, I don't *always* jump at the chance to get on the floor and play pretend with the kids when they ask, I don't feel like we have enough traditions around this house, because for many years I was sort of "anti tradition" and now that it's come to my attention through my own revelations, I've been more aware of how I am mothering and overall, I always feel like I could improve. The truth is I think it's good for my kids to have "independent" time in their day, and I also like the "break" when I sit down and just "veg" for a few moments.
I believe it's fairly normal to feel like you fall short in a few places in your life, but to dwell on the downfalls instead of the good is where I have a bit of an issue. God reminds me ever so gently that I am the mom he meant for me to be. My kid's have the mom he chose for them and that needs to be good enough. The last few weeks I've been finding myself drawn to a few blogs that are doing a sort of "boost the mom ego" posts. I was reading through one tonight and the light bulb moment occurred. God is sending a message to me. I am a GOOD MOM. I need to see my efforts and the love I have for my children as a blessing to them and I must say I am truly thankful for God's ever present reminders to just "BE". Be in the moment, be who I am. Be the woman he has called me to be. Just BE :)