Thursday, July 21, 2011
Organ Donation strikes again!
Al has a friend named Jeremy. Jeremy jumped at the chance to be tested as a donor for Al when Al was in need of a kidney donor a few years back. Unfortunately Jeremy was not a match for Al. That could have been enough; but Jeremy wasn't satisfied. Today Jeremy went under the knife as a kidney donor to a recipient he's never met. Jeremy felt just because he wasn't a match for Al, doesn't mean he wasn't meant to be a living donor. Al took Jeremy downtown this morning, they had to be there by 6 am. It is now 6 PM Al is not home yet, I think he's happy to hang there; soaking up the goodness of what's transpired today. Jeremy got through surgery with flying colors and from what I hear he's recovering very well! I hope we hear how the recipient is doing at some point, I love happy endings!!
God bless Jeremy!! It's fun as a donor myself to share this experience with someone that's done the same surgery. And the fact that Al was the reason both of us did it, just shows me yet again what knowing someone on a waiting list for a lifesaving transplant can do in your life.
Monday, July 11, 2011
A positive pregnancy test...
Is what I was sort of hoping for this past weekend. Al and I have two kids, I hope to have one more, he feels pretty content with the two we have. It would be a pleasant surprise to add a third child to our family; I am praying it's in God's plan for us at some point in the future. I was hoping this was the time. My hopes were off though. It didn't happen this month. I'm feeling a bit bummed. More so than I have in the past when a pregnancy was a possibility. Life will go on; I will stop envisioning life with three kids; until the next pregnancy "maybe"...
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Dude Ranch Pictures
It's time to share! Oh yes it is! Saddle up; there are a lot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| Day 1! |
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| I adore all animals; I believe I was singing this goat a lullaby! Ha! Just kidding on the lullaby thing :) |
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| Our first trail ride. Acilia rode "Blaster" he turned out to be her favorite horse! |
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| The trails were gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous! |
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| One of my favorite momma daughter pics :) |
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| All the journaling that we did; I used my self timer to take a pic :) |
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| This one cracks me up! |
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| Sooooo happy in my new boots!!! |
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| We visited the sled dogs everyday! |
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| The rodeo |
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| Line Dancing |
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| All packed up and ready to check out |
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| Acilia was saying good bye to all the horses before we left. She would have stayed longer if she could. She L O V E D it at the ranch! |
Let's catch up; shall we?
Summer is officially half over; much to my dismay. I feel like I look forward to summer all year long! The beginning of summer was overlooked due to our excitement for the Dude Ranch trip. We got home after 8 days, settled in and now have just been embracing summer (could that possibly be why I haven't shared pictures of that Dude Ranch trip yet?? GUILTY! So sorry! There are just a few over at my photo blog but I *do* still intend to get some here too!)
Here are a few random updates for now:
This summer I have begun working as a CNA. I answered an ad on Craigslist for a couple nearby that requested the assistance of a CNA to work with a stroke recovery patient. It's been such a great experience thus far and I am looking forward to as much time as they need me, watching improvement as we work together a few times a week. I go there for 3-4 hours each time, we usually walk around the block a few times, we do a lot of range of motion exercises, we've worked on critical thinking/mathematics workbooks and anything else that is needed while I am there. I am eager to help and they are eager to reward. It's a fabulous set up!
Vacation bible school starts tomorrow, Acilia was signed up for horse classes through the park district, the beginning of the summer was "Horse Sense" which is basic knowledge and grooming experience. Later in the month Acilia will start 5 weeks of riding lessons. It was my goal to have her with horses all summer without spending too much money, I believe that task has been achieved!
We are very much looking forward to the County Fair which happens at the end of this month, but as much as we look forward to it, I have a hesitance to be too excited, because summer REALLY seems to fly once the fair is over.
I have been enjoying seeking more details about Heaven. It's been on my heart to learn more about Heaven and I have looked it up in the Bible, but also am quite intrigued by personal accounts of Heaven. I recently finished reading a book called "Heaven is For Real" by Todd Burpo. It's a little boy's account of his visit to Heaven when he had a near death experience. It warmed my heart to visualize images that were being described in the book and at the very end I was introduced to a girl named Akaine. Her child prodigy talent has me in complete and utter awe! A 16 year old girl who was painting vivid images of Heaven and Jesus at the young age of 8. Acilia is 8 and though I am usually blown away at her horse drawings, this girl Akaine's talent leaves me absolutely speechless! I urge you to look her up (follow the link I put in for easy access) and marvel at her wondrous paintings.
As for the rest of the summer and anything I forgot to mention, I am eager to savor each ray of sunshine that comes my way. I know it will be all too soon before the snowflakes start to fall and I slip into the period of the year where I truly wish I could hibernate! For now, I am vibrant! Summer is my absolute favorite time of the year!!!!!!!
Here are a few random updates for now:
This summer I have begun working as a CNA. I answered an ad on Craigslist for a couple nearby that requested the assistance of a CNA to work with a stroke recovery patient. It's been such a great experience thus far and I am looking forward to as much time as they need me, watching improvement as we work together a few times a week. I go there for 3-4 hours each time, we usually walk around the block a few times, we do a lot of range of motion exercises, we've worked on critical thinking/mathematics workbooks and anything else that is needed while I am there. I am eager to help and they are eager to reward. It's a fabulous set up!
Vacation bible school starts tomorrow, Acilia was signed up for horse classes through the park district, the beginning of the summer was "Horse Sense" which is basic knowledge and grooming experience. Later in the month Acilia will start 5 weeks of riding lessons. It was my goal to have her with horses all summer without spending too much money, I believe that task has been achieved!
We are very much looking forward to the County Fair which happens at the end of this month, but as much as we look forward to it, I have a hesitance to be too excited, because summer REALLY seems to fly once the fair is over.
I have been enjoying seeking more details about Heaven. It's been on my heart to learn more about Heaven and I have looked it up in the Bible, but also am quite intrigued by personal accounts of Heaven. I recently finished reading a book called "Heaven is For Real" by Todd Burpo. It's a little boy's account of his visit to Heaven when he had a near death experience. It warmed my heart to visualize images that were being described in the book and at the very end I was introduced to a girl named Akaine. Her child prodigy talent has me in complete and utter awe! A 16 year old girl who was painting vivid images of Heaven and Jesus at the young age of 8. Acilia is 8 and though I am usually blown away at her horse drawings, this girl Akaine's talent leaves me absolutely speechless! I urge you to look her up (follow the link I put in for easy access) and marvel at her wondrous paintings.
As for the rest of the summer and anything I forgot to mention, I am eager to savor each ray of sunshine that comes my way. I know it will be all too soon before the snowflakes start to fall and I slip into the period of the year where I truly wish I could hibernate! For now, I am vibrant! Summer is my absolute favorite time of the year!!!!!!!
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| courtesy of Google |
A first for Miles
Last night Al got the idea for us to go see a movie as a family. Acilia has gone numerous times, but little busy body Miles had never been to a good 'ole movie theater. Until last night. We looked for a movie that would hold his attention and since it was 6:30 pm we had to search for a theater that had it playing between 7:30 and 8 PM to give us time to get there, but to also keep us from being out too late. Tough task but we settled on "Cars 2" at 7:55 at a theater about 25 minutes away. We informed the kids it was a movie night and we headed out. I love spontaneity! I warned Al that he shouldn't be surprised if it was a big waste of money, because if Miles wouldn't sit still and watch; we would be leaving. (Similar experience when I took Acilia to see "Over the Hedge" when she was about 3! Once her popcorn was gone, so was her interest in the movie! HA!) I believe it was in our favor that Miles had missed his nap. He sat through the movie very well; his attention was held and he was nice and quiet the whole time! I was very impressed and enjoyed looking over at my little guy as he enjoyed his first "Big Screen Flick" I also really enjoyed looked to my right and seeing my whole family with me in the theater. We usually split up; Al and I will go see a movie on date night, or I will take Acilia to see something that comes out. But never have the 4 of us gone to the movies all together. Made me feel like a "family" :) As if we didn't already feel like one!
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| The green truck was named "Miles Axelrod" our little Miles was so impressed that his name was in the movie!!!! Overall an A+ for the evening! EXCEPT when we were on our way home driving through a residential neighborhood; our car got egged! Ugh! Who still does that anyway?!?!?! Add salt to the wound; we weren't in our car. We are doing an extended test drive on a brand new Dodge Journey. Irony!!!!!!! We pulled over and called the police. Al walked over to where it happened, he didn't see anyone out there, but there were some shutters moving in the house that made him suspicious that it was kids who ran after they did it. There is some minor damage to the paint; there were two eggs, you can see where they hit, sort of formed a "bulls eye" effect in the paint. |
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
A new day
Well God delivered a blessing to me this morning. As he always does when I need it most. If you read my post last night, you know I was in a dark place. This morning, I woke up after a not so restful night of sleep. I picked up my "The power of prayer to change your marriage" book; wouldn't you know the chapter I was at in the book when I opened it, was exactly what I needed to read this morning! And if that wasn't enough, I sat down in Acilia's room to do my reading, next to the radio which always has Klove on; the song playing is one that we sang in church on Sunday. Titled "Cry out to Jesus". Thank you God! Message came through loud and clear!
Monday, July 4, 2011
Crying out to Jesus
I sit here at 12:40 am on the 4th of July. I have no one to talk to; but I sure need to vent. Not sure publicizing my internal emotions when my soul feels like utter chaos is the right answer, but to be honest, I have no idea what *is* right at the current moment.
Hubby left to visit a lakehouse with some guy friends this weekend. I hoped he would get the relaxation and fun he needs; since he works so hard (He's always sure to remind me of this, along with he is the provider for the family and I virtually do nothing around here). He came home this afternoon and my day has felt like shambles since. He came in telling me he missed me; I go out of my way to try to give him some attention; without giving too many details, I wasn't up for the sort of attention he really needed, but I did my best to cuddle and catch up, there came a point where I left the room otherwise I felt like my attention could be misleading. Time came to leave for my brother's house who he and his wife put together a big family party to celebrate the holiday. Al breaks it to me he's not going. ?? Confusion, frustration, irritation. (Keep your cool Karrie, keep your cool...) I left the house without my husband and not even completely sure why he decided to ditch his family and claim he wasn't very happy with me. It's been a while since I've felt so lost with his actions. I got myself all worked up in the car and had to take detours to compose myself before getting to the party. I ended up in a local church parking lot praying and asking for the strength to get my tears dried up and go enjoy my family. I was just so hurt. Why did he think it was OK to do this to me? Does he realize how it tears me apart? We were at the party for a few hours when he shows up. I was surprised to see him there; wondered what made him change his mind. More confusion; I don't know how to act when my insides are hurt, and we are not in a place to discuss what happened and WHY!? I am a why person, I like answers and his actions never match his words and I am constantly left feeling like I am the source of every part of his grief and I can do nothing right. My confidence is shattered and I had little confidence as a wife to begin with. I am not getting what I need emotionally and on top of that I am so tired. I am tired of not knowing how to act. I can't be myself; that's not accepted, I don't know who to be.
Party ended, he seemed ok, so I tried to settle back into comfort. We came home, got the kids to bed, I showered and came to bed. Al was in already in bed watching TV, so I turned the light on to do a little bit of reading from the book "Heaven is For Real"...apparently the light was bothering him because he got up walked over to my side of the bed and turned the light off. I asked him to turn it back on, he said no and walked back to his side of the bed. I switched it back on and said I would be done reading very soon. (He's still watching TV at this point) I finish up within 10 minutes, switched off the light, I was starting to nodd a bit while reading so I knew it was time to sleep. I started to drift off, not sure how much time had passed; I felt him next to me, he turned the light back on and I heard him say something while shaking the bed; "EARTHQUAKE DRILL" I do recall telling him he was acting like a jerk. Since I was awake, I noted he was watching something that I call "harming to my soul while I am trying to sleep" it was either violent or loud, or frightening, something along those lines that causes nightmares if you fall asleep watching or listening to it. We've had this conversation soooo many times about TV watching in the bedroom. My view is I hate having TV in the bedroom, but if you are going to watch it, please be considerate of the fact that someone else is in the room *trying* to partake in a peaceful slumber.
He is adamant that he is relaxing and I should leave the room if I don't like it. This is about the time that my insides always get all worked up, I start to feel tears coming, internally I am shaking, wondering what action is suitable for the current situation. I tried a conversation, he shut me down; told me we were done talking. What do I do? I am asking; WHAT DO I DO?!
I am eager to learn what the Lord wants to teach me, I just don't know if I have it in me to keep being treated this way; it's just not healthy. It feels so wrong; yet there is nothing I can do to change it. It kills me because it's happening TO me against my will and I have no solution. I am a solutions person, I want to make peace. Instead I shut down. That's my defense and it's the opposite of proactive. I am stuck and feeling low and just looking for answers.
Hubby left to visit a lakehouse with some guy friends this weekend. I hoped he would get the relaxation and fun he needs; since he works so hard (He's always sure to remind me of this, along with he is the provider for the family and I virtually do nothing around here). He came home this afternoon and my day has felt like shambles since. He came in telling me he missed me; I go out of my way to try to give him some attention; without giving too many details, I wasn't up for the sort of attention he really needed, but I did my best to cuddle and catch up, there came a point where I left the room otherwise I felt like my attention could be misleading. Time came to leave for my brother's house who he and his wife put together a big family party to celebrate the holiday. Al breaks it to me he's not going. ?? Confusion, frustration, irritation. (Keep your cool Karrie, keep your cool...) I left the house without my husband and not even completely sure why he decided to ditch his family and claim he wasn't very happy with me. It's been a while since I've felt so lost with his actions. I got myself all worked up in the car and had to take detours to compose myself before getting to the party. I ended up in a local church parking lot praying and asking for the strength to get my tears dried up and go enjoy my family. I was just so hurt. Why did he think it was OK to do this to me? Does he realize how it tears me apart? We were at the party for a few hours when he shows up. I was surprised to see him there; wondered what made him change his mind. More confusion; I don't know how to act when my insides are hurt, and we are not in a place to discuss what happened and WHY!? I am a why person, I like answers and his actions never match his words and I am constantly left feeling like I am the source of every part of his grief and I can do nothing right. My confidence is shattered and I had little confidence as a wife to begin with. I am not getting what I need emotionally and on top of that I am so tired. I am tired of not knowing how to act. I can't be myself; that's not accepted, I don't know who to be.
Party ended, he seemed ok, so I tried to settle back into comfort. We came home, got the kids to bed, I showered and came to bed. Al was in already in bed watching TV, so I turned the light on to do a little bit of reading from the book "Heaven is For Real"...apparently the light was bothering him because he got up walked over to my side of the bed and turned the light off. I asked him to turn it back on, he said no and walked back to his side of the bed. I switched it back on and said I would be done reading very soon. (He's still watching TV at this point) I finish up within 10 minutes, switched off the light, I was starting to nodd a bit while reading so I knew it was time to sleep. I started to drift off, not sure how much time had passed; I felt him next to me, he turned the light back on and I heard him say something while shaking the bed; "EARTHQUAKE DRILL" I do recall telling him he was acting like a jerk. Since I was awake, I noted he was watching something that I call "harming to my soul while I am trying to sleep" it was either violent or loud, or frightening, something along those lines that causes nightmares if you fall asleep watching or listening to it. We've had this conversation soooo many times about TV watching in the bedroom. My view is I hate having TV in the bedroom, but if you are going to watch it, please be considerate of the fact that someone else is in the room *trying* to partake in a peaceful slumber.
He is adamant that he is relaxing and I should leave the room if I don't like it. This is about the time that my insides always get all worked up, I start to feel tears coming, internally I am shaking, wondering what action is suitable for the current situation. I tried a conversation, he shut me down; told me we were done talking. What do I do? I am asking; WHAT DO I DO?!
I am eager to learn what the Lord wants to teach me, I just don't know if I have it in me to keep being treated this way; it's just not healthy. It feels so wrong; yet there is nothing I can do to change it. It kills me because it's happening TO me against my will and I have no solution. I am a solutions person, I want to make peace. Instead I shut down. That's my defense and it's the opposite of proactive. I am stuck and feeling low and just looking for answers.
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